In 2014, I learned a lot of things about myself and others.
I learned that I was at an all-time low in my mental health, and almost no one noticed (except two of my close friends). I also learned that I had such a good “poker face” that nobody suspected my degrading state of mind, my moody attitude, my intense drive to get as drunk as possible pretty much anytime I could earlier this year, and my secret desire to dump everything and just run away. Yeah, I kept a lot bottled up inside, and I just…exploded this fall: I was in an apathetic state; I was going nowhere with my current life choices; and I was slowly forgetting about me in all this ‘parenthood’ adventure. I just needed a break, needed time to think about what I really wanted in life, and just go for it.
Which I did: getting back into the GeekfestMTL (in a new position that shouldn’t take as much time as my previous position in the first two editions); started drawing and photographing again; finally attacking that huge pile of books and magazines I kept pushing in the future; taking some “alone” vacations out of town; writing; meeting new people and making new friends; and started training and exercising again, gaining back a healthier body in return for the hard work.
For 2015, I’ll keep this creative and healthy path. It made me happy again by the end of 2014, and I think it will keep me happy for next year 😀
I learned about the fragility of friendship. Oh, and that your “friends” can laugh about any of your choices, tastes and life decisions, but you can’t laugh about theirs.
One of those lessons in 2014 I learned the hard way.
But on the good side, it made me re-evaluate all the people in my network last year, and see who could really be called “friend” (and belong to my tribe). A couple of old friends were eliminated from my daily life and contact, and a surprising amount of acquaintances became really close in the last few months. I was also lucky to meet new ones, whom grew to be really close, and who gave me some nice advice to reflect on. I may have lost people I called “family” (and damn did it hurt!), but I gained remarkable people along the way. Damn lucky I am to have these new friends in my tribe, and to still have some awesome close friends that managed to help and motivate me. I am surrounded by awesome people!
And for 2015, I’ll start this amazing year with them, and we’ll have an awesome time! Because my tribe rocks!