If there is ONE subject that touches me a lot in my professional domain, it’s the infamous Imposter Syndrome. Even after 17+ years working as a web professional, I still have that impression of feeling inadequate, that I will be debunked, my credibility “attacked” for not knowing everything…and it’s STUPID! It’s a fucking useless and stupid feeling, an anxious thought that just doesn’t want to leave you alone. No amount of work you do through the years can totally erased all these dark thoughts and feelings you feel most of your time, and in my case, having been the victim of bullying throughout most of high school did NOT help at all with my self-esteem and self-confidence (fuck you all, by the way, you worthless bullies from High School! You are soooooooooooooooooo not worthed all the post-years of trauma, psychological stress and therapy sessions you brought on your victims with all your vile words and physical attacks).
So go read this article from Christian Heilmann: as you will read, even long-time professionals can feel that syndrome. We are not alone!
Of impostor syndrome and running in circles (part 1)
from Christian Heilmann http://bit.ly/1GaAP0v
Let's me be honest here: I do not have the "maternity fiber". La fibre maternelle. I just don't.
Even after all these years as a mother of a nice toddler (do we still call them toddler when they start school in three weeks?), I still don't feel like a "mother" in my head; I do
When you feel you just can’t write anything anymore on your own personal space, I guess it’s time to just close it.
Or just fuck the people who will judge your unconventional mind and way of life, and continue writing. Fuck the consequences and all…
from Fragments http://bit.ly/153SOtz
What does friendship means if you can't even joke anymore...
Sometimes you just want to let it all go and live your life, one day at a time.
Sometimes you just want to embrace your inner thoughts,
Follow your darkest desires,
Surrender to your senses.
Now let's dance.
Soooooooooooo. It’s almost the end of August, and no update from my part here. What a busy summer it had been!
Started a new job in June, and got another episode of zona in the last two weeks (this one pretty painful, a first).
Still running like a chicken without a head around, running after my time and the daughter.
On the social life front, thought, it’s been pretty quiet: a couple of nights out with friends, but since I started my new job, I was pretty much too tired to go out a lot. It was mostly a “cocooning” summer at home.
And now, what’s next this fall for me? A first: no university, no back-to-school fever for me! I know, some of my friends have bets going on, on when I’ll be back in school (seems like I can’t stop loving school), but seriously, I think I’m done for at least 5 years: just enough time for the “study itch” becomes too intense for me 😛
Otherwise, I’ll also be starting a new personal project, related to my field of work. More info on that later this fall 😀