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In 2014, I learned…

  

In 2014, I learned a lot of things about myself and others.

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I learned that I was at an all-time low in my mental health, and almost no one noticed (except two of my close friends). I also learned that I had such a good “poker face” that nobody suspected my degrading state of mind, my moody attitude, my intense drive to get as drunk as possible pretty much anytime I could earlier this year, and my secret desire to dump everything and just run away. Yeah, I kept a lot bottled up inside, and I just…exploded this fall: I was in an apathetic state; I was going nowhere with my current life choices; and I was slowly forgetting about me in all this ‘parenthood’ adventure. I just needed a break, needed time to think about what I really wanted in life, and just go for it.

Which I did: getting back into the GeekfestMTL (in a new position that shouldn’t take as much time as my previous position in the first two editions); started drawing and photographing again; finally attacking that huge pile of books and magazines I kept pushing in the future; taking some “alone” vacations out of town; writing; meeting new people and making new friends; and started training and exercising again, gaining back a healthier body in return for the hard work.

For 2015, I’ll keep this creative and healthy path. It made me happy again by the end of 2014, and I think it will keep me happy for next year :D

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I learned about the fragility of friendship. Oh, and that your “friends” can laugh about any of your choices, tastes and life decisions, but you can’t laugh about theirs.

One of those lessons in 2014 I learned the hard way.

But on the good side, it made me re-evaluate all the people in my network last year, and see who could really be called “friend” (and belong to my tribe). A couple of old friends were eliminated from my daily life and contact, and a surprising amount of acquaintances became really close in the last few months. I was also lucky to meet new ones, whom grew to be really close, and who gave me some nice advice to reflect on. I may have lost people I called “family” (and damn did it hurt!), but I gained remarkable people along the way. Damn lucky I am to have these new friends in my tribe, and to still have some awesome close friends that managed to help and motivate me. I am surrounded by awesome people!

And for 2015, I’ll start this amazing year with them, and we’ll have an awesome time! Because my tribe rocks!

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From my Feedly: Thoughts and quotes

  

“I think everything in life is art. What you do. How you dress. The way you love someone, and how you talk. Your smile and your personality. What you believe in, and all your dreams. The way you drink your tea. How you decorate your home. Or party. Your grocery list. The food you make. How your writing looks. And the way you feel. Life is art.”

Helena Bonham Carter (via mysharona1987)

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From my Feedly: Thoughts and quotes

  

“In fact, digital is a huge conceptual change, a sociological change, a cluster bomb blowing apart who we are and how our world is ordered, how we see ourselves, how we live. It’s a change we’re in the middle of, so close up that sometimes it’s hard to see. But it is deeply profound and it is happening at an almost unbelievable speed.”

The rise of the reader: journalism in the age of the open web | Katharine Viner | Comment is free | The Guardian

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From my Feedly: Thoughts and quotes

  

“When you’re fighting mental illness like you are, you’re fighting a silent battle. No one sees just how hard you’re constantly having to fight. No one else knows the pain and the inner turmoil like you do. You should be proud of yourself, even when you feel like you’re failing. I think anyone fighting a mental illness deserves a Medal of Honor, because that fight is real and its more difficult than most people realize.”

Debbie, the anxiety group therapist at valley (via whenanxietystrikes)

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